Housewife

Housewife...how i loathe that word yet i am one..by choice?..not really...had to quit my job coz following my hubby who got posted overseas..well, i could have stayed here and him being over there, but being old school i guess, family comes first. For me, a family needs to stay together..i do know few friends who live separately from their spouse and some didn't have any problems with that, but not me..i would be feeling guilty, having the kids apart from their dad. Anyway, being a housewife really bugs me, yep, even though it has been nearly ten years. My friends who are working do envy me having leisure time, not worrying about work and being yelled at by the boss. Well, there are two sides to a coin so there are some cons that come with being a housewife. Financial dependency on your hubby is one, which was a bit difficult for me, and still is, as I was financially dependent during my single days, having scholarship during my students days and have had worked for a few years. And for me, I feel by being a housewife, I am not really using my brain..the only writing I do is the groceries list..well, actually now that my kids have gone to school, I do a bit of writing in the communication book to their teachers but that's about it. That's why now I am starting my blog,at least I can get my brain going again and also get a few things off my chest.

Some people think that it's good that the mothers stay at home and take care of their kids coz then the children's upbringing is better than being left with the maid. But being cooped up at home and having to do all the housework and not being able to do things for yourself without feeling guilty, does take a toll on you and the anger and frustration would be let out on the kids by yelling at them for no good reason. So that's a catch 22 situation there, isn't it? Patience is really important and I am still working on it.

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I have been wanting to write for quite a while but i just don't know how or where or when to start..."don't" means until now i still don't know..urgh!!!!!!!!!Not wanting to make mistakes or being disappointed also stopped me from starting sooner. Other excuses would be me being a mom, always busy with the housework, my son's school activities..(in fact just came back from one..ang hey..still got time to di this..yeay for me!), feeling guilty that if i spend time doing my writing, I am not be spending quality time with my kids...etc..etc...But I know, they are all excuses..when there's a will, there's a way....As of right now, I am taking some "time off" for five minutes..well maybe it has been already ten minutes..with my snail-like typing ....well..gotta go now..need to cook...Excuses?????????

should i or should i not?

to start this blog, i have been contemplating whether to do it or not...scared that i might write the wrong thing or even worse write something stupid..but today, decided to have ago at it and see how it goes..so many things that i want to write about but really don't how to express it. have a friend who is an excellent writer and she advised me to start blogging..so here's to you my friend...wish me luck...